30 Mar Step by Step
Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
I am always looking for the next adventure. I struggle to live in the moment. If you’re wondering why that is, perhaps part of the reason lies in my past. When life got painful or difficult (Letting Go and Beautiful Scars) I was always hopeful of a new chapter, it spurred me on. Yet the downside of this, is, if you are always looking for something new when struggle happens, you can miss the beauty where you are. I am in a place of waiting. Yep still here. Yet not in the exact same spot.
I have been studying a Bachelor of Commerce for a few weeks now. I am enjoying it, but overwhelmingly I thought I will be 30 years old when I finish, as I am a part time student. No one else seemed fazed apart from me. It bothered me that my other dreams wouldn’t be realised right this minute. Recently I checked what prior learning credit meant for my course structure. I learned if I continued to complete two subjects per semester I could be finished in four years. I couldn’t believe it – in fact I needed them to reassure me multiple times (I think it was a relief for them when I hung up). Jesus had done the unexpected. I was happy. Relieved. Yet still discontent and overwhelmed. I imagined my graduation and that got me excited and I once again decided to be more purposeful in enjoying one day at a time.
I am far from perfect but here is a few things I have found useful in finding contentment in a season of waiting.
Practise gratitude: Start looking for things that you are grateful for and makes your day shine a little brighter. That way you are more likely to want to slow down and enjoy them, rather than tap your foot impatiently.
Stop comparing yourself to others: Comparing yourself to others robs you of joy, peace and contentment. Be happy for them, but don’t tear shreds off yourself.
Focus on one day at a time: Choose to take Matthew 6:34 to heart and learn to love what you could do today.
See the waiting as an opportunity: Waiting can be a gift. Yes, you heard right. A chance to change, grow, learn and prepare etc. for your next chapter.
Talk to Jesus: Talking to Jesus has helped me incredibly through my season of waiting. He has heard my frustrations and desires often and He has whispered into my heart many times. It is the sweetest thing in the midst of the season of waiting.
For me this is a progress not perfection moment. Learning to take one step at a time and enjoy the scenery as I am walking along.