25 May Just Breathe
Isaiah 45:9 – 10 “Woe to him who quarrels with his Maker, to him who is but a potsherd among the potsherds on the ground. Does the clay say to the potter, ‘What are you making?’ Does your work say, ‘He has no hands?’ Woe to him who says to his father, ‘What have you begotten?’ or to his mother ‘What have you brought to birth?’
This week I just feel exhausted. The kind of exhaustion that makes me want to stay in bed but knowing if I do I will get a thumping headache – thanks Chronic Fatigue you are ever so kind – not! And I feel so sore where stretching doesn’t make much difference. I know that the highs and lows are all part of A Mountainous Journey which is Chronic Fatigue. It is so easy to become frustrated and hurt by the lows (exhaustion) that I can forget the highs (being full of energy) and that the lows do pass so I can enjoy the highs once again. This picture can be brought into all of life too.
I have made it no secret how hard I have found waiting to be (I hope I am not alone in this). In an effort to be honest and open with all of you here is some of what I am waiting for:
Moving out of home
The first two are especially close to my heart. Yet here I am waiting. Jesus has told me it is not His perfect timing to have these desires realised yet, but He has told me Trust me I know your heart. I believe Jesus tenderly holds my heart but that does not mean I become superhuman and don’t feel when asked to wait, because at times it just hurts. Some things I have found helpful when trying to breathe through the frustration and hurt, to remain hopeful. These are:
Talk to Jesus how you are really feeling – He always calms my troubled heart
Give your desires to Jesus – if something is not meant for you then Jesus will have another dream for you to dream
Remind yourself of God’s perfect timing in your life before – read about some of mine in Unexpected Detour
Look out for stories of God’s perfect timing – Nick Vuijicic wrote Love Without Limits detailing his beautiful love story with his wife, Kanae. On Instagram I follow a woman who held onto God’s promise to her that one day she would be the mother of twins; she waited 10 years – but now she holds her promises, her baby boys. These stories give me hope, that despite the waiting, God is faithful to the promises He gives
Remember every season has a time limit, even the season of waiting – I am not in the same place I was 10 years ago and the same will be true for this season.
Be thankful – for what you have and where you are right now, God has placed so much beauty in this moment for you to enjoy.
I want to encourage you to take a breath and focus on Jesus in order to regain peace and hopefulness for the future. Job 42:2 reassures us “I know you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.” If something is a part of God’s greater plan for your life it will happen in His perfect timing. The hurt of waiting will fade to but a distant memory as you are filled with pure joy at a promise fulfilled and God’s amazing faithfulness.