Health + Wellbeing / 23.11.2017

Last week I wrote about my own journey to embracing self – love in What Do You See? This week I would like to focus on another aspect of self – love and that is gratitude. When I began my journey of self – love it came from a negative place. I would exercise because I ‘had’ to lose weight; my relationship with food was full of anxiety (it is still something I am fighting). I had to heal and grow to be able to shift my thinking...

Health + Wellbeing / 09.11.2017

Your attitude can change your perspective note that I didn’t say it will necessarily change your circumstances but it can help you cope when life throws a curve ball. For about three years I have lived with constant nausea (not vomiting) without knowing why. No I am not pregnant despite a few doctors asking me even after I had told them how long I had been feeling sick for (it would be the longest pregnancy ever!). I tried many remedies to stop feeling sick from heartburn medication to nausea...

Health + Wellbeing / 12.10.2017

My Pa in Orange recently celebrated a birthday. So this week’s blog post is a tribute to him. One of the biggest things I am trying to learn, which my Pa seems to do effortlessly, is to never give up. His life has been coloured with hardship, heartache, loss and health issues a plenty. Each time he gets knocked down he manages to pick himself up, adapt and soldier on. For me I tend to break first; floods of tears, feeling like I just can’t get back up again....

Health + Wellbeing / 28.09.2017

Last week when I wrote about 10 Things I Am Learning through My Journey with Depression I really surprised and hurt some of my family and friends. Why? Because I revealed an underlining thought pattern that has been with me for as long as I can remember. I am a burden. Four simple words that have wreaked havoc in the way I do life. I have physical limitations that come with a life touched by Cerebral Palsy. There are daily challenges and impossibilities, such as I can’t put on...

Health + Wellbeing / 21.09.2017

There are days when the struggle is really intense. On these days I am quick to tear myself to pieces. I feel like a huge burden to those around me. I wonder why they choose me as their friend or my family puts up with me because they have to; surely not because they want to. When the storm closes in tears are frequent. Overwhelmed is how I would describe days like these. I had one such day yesterday. I wanted to take on the world and change...

Health + Wellbeing / 07.09.2017

Do you remember last week in Happiness Challenge I wrote you are volunteering to gain confidence to be able to apply for paid work? Well over the last couple of weeks my confidence has grown little by little to the point where I didn’t have a panic attack and talk myself out of even applying for a job. Yay! At least for this time anyway; as I am prone to my anxiety ebbing and flowing. A few days previously someone said to me that I should apply for...

Health + Wellbeing / 31.08.2017

I have decided to start a happiness challenge for myself with particular emphasis on right now. Too often I have found myself thinking I was happy when… or more frequently I will be happy when… I will be happy when I get paid employment, I will be happy when I am able to move out and away from my hometown, I will be happy when I have abs, I will be happy when I get to travel particularly internationally, I will be happy when I get married, I...

Health + Wellbeing / 17.08.2017

I have always had low confidence in myself period. It doesn’t matter which area of life we are talking about from my appearance to my talents low confidence seems to be the trademark. Do I want this? If a person was to describe me, what would they say? In the past, especially with my talents, I would manage to turn a compliment into self- induced pressure. I would stress about living up to that compliment next time. During my childhood I had more confidence in comparison to my teen...

Health + Wellbeing / 10.08.2017

I wasn’t going to write this; I was going to hold onto it a little longer as I come to terms with yet another label that goes right to my core and infiltrates everything. Two weeks ago I went to the doctor and explained that even though I struggle with anxiety the feelings of deep sadness, hopelessness and suicidal thoughts were new and they worried me. After a lengthy discussion I was diagnosed with reactive depression. Part of me was relieved that I finally had answers to the emotions...

Health + Wellbeing / 27.07.2017

Last week, in The Flickering Flame, I wrote how sometimes life really hurts. This week I wanted to write an appreciation post for those who help life hurt a little less. They are like warm sunshine on a cold and cloudy day. They are like honey with sweetness that can touch the rawness in my life and make it so much better. They bring out the best me and I love them alot. They are my friends and family. Showing vulnerability and being honest about how I am going...