Health + Wellbeing / 07.06.2018

On Tuesday I finalised my enrolment in a Certificate IV in Accounting! Driving home I felt completely overwhelmed as my past experience of study (that didn’t go so well) filled my mind with insecurity and panic took over my being. My Mum strongly encouraged me to challenge those thoughts. To not just let fear consume me like it is the only option I have. To remember to fight back. You and I have a choice to challenge the negativity and anxiety/fear surrounding ourselves and our lives. I would like to...

Encouragement / 26.04.2018

Today it hit me, at the end of this year it will be 2 years since I graduated and 3 years since I finished my uni degree in Strategic Communication. Rather than feeling proud I felt the opposite; highly anxious and deep sadness. Why? Because I haven’t accomplished what I term ‘success’. It was like ‘what have you been doing with your life?’ in the most accusing, unkind tone. Let’s pause there for a moment, because I would like to share 3 strategies to deal with anxiety I have...

Health + Wellbeing / 15.03.2018

A common comment I receive when I share my story to a live audience is “I could never do that” to which I reply “I have changed a lot”. Sure I still get nervous, but I am motived to encourage people in whatever storms they face in life. The old me would have never accepted an invitation to speak. When I had to complete oral presentations at both High School and University I would be counting down the seconds until it was over. So I would like to...

Health + Wellbeing / 08.02.2018

I have always been a perfectionist. It has been how I approached life from a very young age. Due to Cerebral Palsy I knew as a little girl I was not perfect physically and would get very frustrated when my body wouldn’t cooperate with what I wanted to do. All in an effort of having a semblance of normal life. The more I tried to involve myself and came up short, my anger and resentment grew for a disability I couldn’t ditch, although I tried. The worst was...

Health + Wellbeing / 01.02.2018

Due to Cerebral Palsy I struggle to walk backwards it is a lot easier to move forwards. Yet in life, figuratively speaking, I can bolt in the opposite direction at a moment’s notice. But I don’t want to be who I once was: full of fear and anxiety, lacking confidence and, at times due to these things, afraid to try; because let’s be honest not many of us like to fail even though falling down is a natural part of life. I read on Instagram one day that...

Health + Wellbeing / 25.01.2018

This week I have been wanting chocolate. I don’t have it that regularly due to the reactions it gives me because of Non –ulcer (functional) Dyspepsia. But occasionally I treat myself not; only because I enjoy it, but also because I am trying to have a healthier relationship with food which is no longer filled with anxiety, but balance. So I thought I would share some of my favourite chocolate recipes with you all. The first recipe a friend told us about from taste.com.au Chocolate Mousse in minutes 300g good quality...

Self Love / 16.11.2017

When it comes to self-love I don’t pretend to have it all together. The way I have viewed my body in the past has been honestly quite sad; with such comments as ‘you are fat’, ‘your arms are too big’ and ‘your skin is too white’ were among my personal favourite criticisms of myself. When I looked in the mirror I would see someone that was way bigger than what I really was and I would look at photos of myself until they turned 'ugly' only focusing on...

Health + Wellbeing / 28.09.2017

Last week when I wrote about 10 Things I Am Learning through My Journey with Depression I really surprised and hurt some of my family and friends. Why? Because I revealed an underlining thought pattern that has been with me for as long as I can remember. I am a burden. Four simple words that have wreaked havoc in the way I do life. I have physical limitations that come with a life touched by Cerebral Palsy. There are daily challenges and impossibilities, such as I can’t put on...

Health + Wellbeing / 21.09.2017

There are days when the struggle is really intense. On these days I am quick to tear myself to pieces. I feel like a huge burden to those around me. I wonder why they choose me as their friend or my family puts up with me because they have to; surely not because they want to. When the storm closes in tears are frequent. Overwhelmed is how I would describe days like these. I had one such day yesterday. I wanted to take on the world and change...

Health + Wellbeing / 07.09.2017

Do you remember last week in Happiness Challenge I wrote you are volunteering to gain confidence to be able to apply for paid work? Well over the last couple of weeks my confidence has grown little by little to the point where I didn’t have a panic attack and talk myself out of even applying for a job. Yay! At least for this time anyway; as I am prone to my anxiety ebbing and flowing. A few days previously someone said to me that I should apply for...