Health + Wellbeing / 07.06.2018

On Tuesday I finalised my enrolment in a Certificate IV in Accounting! Driving home I felt completely overwhelmed as my past experience of study (that didn’t go so well) filled my mind with insecurity and panic took over my being. My Mum strongly encouraged me to challenge those thoughts. To not just let fear consume me like it is the only option I have. To remember to fight back. You and I have a choice to challenge the negativity and anxiety/fear surrounding ourselves and our lives. I would like to...

Encouragement / 24.05.2018

Once I get the paperwork finalised I will be going back to study, this time a Certificate IV in Accounting. I have to admit that while I am looking forward to completing the course I am also apprehensive. Why? Because I have tried to go back to study after my original degree of Strategic Communication. Last year I embarked on completing a Bachelor of Commerce. I completely failed the first semester. Previously study was the thing I was good at, so I didn’t cope with failure; even to...

Encouragement / 10.05.2018

I have listened to this song before thanks to the movie The Other Woman but the lyrics only struck me this week and I would like to share them with you. The song is called The Sun is Rising by Britt Nicole. When life has cut too deep and left you hurting The future you had hoped for is now burning And the dreams you held so tight lost their meaning And you don't know if you'll ever find the healing You're gonna make it You're gonna make it And the night can only last...

Encouragement / 26.04.2018

Today it hit me, at the end of this year it will be 2 years since I graduated and 3 years since I finished my uni degree in Strategic Communication. Rather than feeling proud I felt the opposite; highly anxious and deep sadness. Why? Because I haven’t accomplished what I term ‘success’. It was like ‘what have you been doing with your life?’ in the most accusing, unkind tone. Let’s pause there for a moment, because I would like to share 3 strategies to deal with anxiety I have...

Health + Wellbeing / 15.03.2018

A common comment I receive when I share my story to a live audience is “I could never do that” to which I reply “I have changed a lot”. Sure I still get nervous, but I am motived to encourage people in whatever storms they face in life. The old me would have never accepted an invitation to speak. When I had to complete oral presentations at both High School and University I would be counting down the seconds until it was over. So I would like to...

Health + Wellbeing / 01.02.2018

Due to Cerebral Palsy I struggle to walk backwards it is a lot easier to move forwards. Yet in life, figuratively speaking, I can bolt in the opposite direction at a moment’s notice. But I don’t want to be who I once was: full of fear and anxiety, lacking confidence and, at times due to these things, afraid to try; because let’s be honest not many of us like to fail even though falling down is a natural part of life. I read on Instagram one day that...

Self Love / 30.11.2017

This week’s blog post is unintentionally a follow on from Your Attitude Can Change Your Perspective. Sure I have been working on my attitude to consciously choose to be more positive, happy and hopeful; but there are still days, frequently I might add, where I feel crushed by the past that undeniably shapes my future. It is no secret that life with Cerebral Palsy comes with daily challenges as I described in Letting Go: I struggle with having to use a walking frame; let’s face it, it’s noisy, ugly and...

Health + Wellbeing / 12.10.2017

My Pa in Orange recently celebrated a birthday. So this week’s blog post is a tribute to him. One of the biggest things I am trying to learn, which my Pa seems to do effortlessly, is to never give up. His life has been coloured with hardship, heartache, loss and health issues a plenty. Each time he gets knocked down he manages to pick himself up, adapt and soldier on. For me I tend to break first; floods of tears, feeling like I just can’t get back up again....

Health + Wellbeing / 21.09.2017

There are days when the struggle is really intense. On these days I am quick to tear myself to pieces. I feel like a huge burden to those around me. I wonder why they choose me as their friend or my family puts up with me because they have to; surely not because they want to. When the storm closes in tears are frequent. Overwhelmed is how I would describe days like these. I had one such day yesterday. I wanted to take on the world and change...

Health + Wellbeing / 10.08.2017

I wasn’t going to write this; I was going to hold onto it a little longer as I come to terms with yet another label that goes right to my core and infiltrates everything. Two weeks ago I went to the doctor and explained that even though I struggle with anxiety the feelings of deep sadness, hopelessness and suicidal thoughts were new and they worried me. After a lengthy discussion I was diagnosed with reactive depression. Part of me was relieved that I finally had answers to the emotions...