Psalm 46:10a “Be still and know that I am God”
We all lead busy lives and priorities that we are constantly juggling never seeming to find the right balance. I never really understood what Psalm 46:10a meant and the whole meaning of ‘quiet time with Jesus’ just went over my head.
Jesus used one book to change my perspective on how we, Jesus and me, should spend time together and thus grow our relationship. The book is called Beautiful Uncertainty by Mandy Hale. Hale spoke of her experience of how Jesus changed how they spent time together to something beautiful and sweet and how it did in fact grow their relationship to a closeness she had never experienced before.
I didn’t have that closeness with Jesus Hale described. I was sceptical yet something in my heart responded, I wanted to meet with Jesus in a real, raw and close way.
Mandy Hale encouraged readers:
“Today I urge you to stop talking, and stop asking and stop begging and stop requesting and just get silent in His presence and listen. Who knows? His still, small voice might just blow your mind”
Before I had just talked at Jesus rather than to Him. I found reading the Bible dry and complicated with big words I didn’t know the meaning of let alone knew how to pronounce so I relied on devotionals for the scripture and explanation of what it meant. I would pray throughout the day and at bedtime, but my prayers in the evening were always interrupted because I would fall asleep.
I wanted more. Jesus had captured my heart at age 20 and through the adventure of going to university we developed a friendship, if you will, though after graduating university I felt Jesus pursuing me for a deeper commitment. With any relationship we need to put in the effort and spend time with them, Jesus is no different.
James 4:8a “Come near to God and he will come near to you”
So I decided on meeting with Jesus in the morning. I figured that way I had a lesser chance of falling asleep or other activities distracting me. As for where we meet I sit on my couch; but I imagine Jesus meeting me at a beautiful beach or in a field of wildflowers and it is just us, letting the waves lap our feet or picking flowers as we enjoy each other’s company.
It is beautiful, rich and sweet.
I talk to Jesus and I am learning to listen for His voice which for me comes gently in the stirring of my heart not through an audible voice. I ask for leading as to where we should read in the Bible for that day, based on what He wants to teach me and share with me. I write in a notebook of our moments together.
We can’t wait until we are perfect or only for the sunny days of life, we can come flawed, broken, and sinful and constantly failing with the storms of life raging and Jesus will meet us there giving us understanding of His breathed Word.