Job 42:2 “I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.”
“You trust Him for two seconds then you are back to being anxious, I am so angry with you! Have you not learnt anything?” This was the vein of my thoughts Sunday night. For weeks, ok, honestly, years I have struggled to trust Jesus in His plans for me and their perfect timing. This is despite Jesus continually reassuring me as He whispers into my heart “trust me…trust me…trust me…” I got so angry with myself for my lack of trust.
I have previously written in Patience and Trust in the Storm and Dancing in the Midst of the Storm about my still developing trust each time learning something new. As I read through earlier posts one, in particular, stood out. In Fighting Back I shared about my battle with anxiety, stress, worry and fear. I wrote:
Enough was enough. I wanted my joy, my fun, my good memories, my peace and my life back. Even though I didn’t know what that would look like. I decided to start fighting back with Jesus’ help.
It was a light bulb moment for me. I realised at that time that I had to make a decision about my anxiety, stress, worry and fear, that enough was enough. I have the same choice with my trust, or lack of, that enough was enough. I don’t want to live with my lack of trust in Jesus and the beautiful plans He has for me AND their perfect timing. My lack of trust was robbing me of my joy, patience, peace, hope and love for life right now. Jesus can help me trust Him; but like I had to create new habits associated with my anxiety, stress, worry and fear to make lasting change I realised I needed to do the same for trust.
Jesus shared with me three Bible verses that I am choosing to know in my heart not just my head they are:
Philippians 4: 6 – 7 says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Mathew 6:34 says, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Job 42:2 says, “I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.”
That night something in my heart shifted. A newly found level of trust. More trust doesn’t equal an easier life; it means more joy, patience, peace, hope and love for life right now. I am choosing each day to talk to Jesus every time I get anxious, be more present and believe what Jesus has promised will come true in His perfect time.